i said i love you to death,
so i must be dead

ABOUT THE WRITER
diana nusantara has spent 19 years of their life trying to figure out the moon. they go to university lectures and afterwards write poetry about [DATA EXPUNGED]. for personal reasons, they choose to be dramatic. reach them on twitter (@breakyaknees) or by email (suckrpunchz@gmail.com)

ABOUT THE BLOG

first,

edenphernelia: a word formed by combining “eden” and “caraphernelia” to suggest a meaning that only those who search for it will know.

eden, defined as the garden where according to the account in genesis adam and eve first lived, or a place of pristine or abundant natural beauty.

caraphernelia, defined as the pierce the veil song about a condition in which painful memories and heartbreak are induced by someone who has abandoned you but left their belongings behind.

thus: the state of missing heaven despite only remembering it in fragments.

thus: a romantic searching for symbols of love in a world that has vandalised them over and over.

thus: a love for the beautiful accompanied by the knowledge that it will wear your skin and leave you – just like everyone else.

thus: a definition of everything that is human.

second,

i felt younger when we met: a song by waterparks. bad for the soul.